Horse Portrait, Prisma Colored Pencil on Paper
This horse drawing is one of old work in prisma colored pencils on paper. I was then fascinated with realism and I spent countless hours, days and weeks in every art piece. Though I changed my style now but the realism still very present in my creativity. It’s a challenge for me how combine my new ideas to all in one piece but I quite like it and was very pleased with the result.
Stargazer Lily, watercolor on paper
Then I fell in love with the flowers and almost painting only about flowers and even planned to be a botanical artist. Botanical art demands perfections of details and colors and it takes time to finish a single piece. It look very simple and ordinary because of the plain background but it’s very focused on the main subject and every part of the flower.
Malaysia Eagle, watercolor on paper
Then of course, I fell in love with birds and began painting more about birds. And this point photography was born in my creativity. I was obsessed with birds and I watched them from dawn to dusk and was fascinated of the life they have. My love of nature grow inside me and though of becoming an environmental artist. I took a lot of pictures at this time than painting and had almost forgotten to paint. I decided to quit as a portrait artist and decided to be a nature artist. I am still very inspired by nature until now and it’s something that I treasured in my heart and mind.
Then there’s a long break. I feel somehow lost in translation of what I’m doing. Probably because I’ve been doing so many things and I’m overwhelmed. Looking at my works, I feel like I’m inconsistent. I followed what interest me and just happy to have that freedom. I’m kind of worried because it seems I can’t focused on one subject and worst I fell in love with photography. I have no much time and when time is available, I am also sick. Even at this moment writing this blog, I just burnt my lentils in the pan. I even have problem on my biography on how to shortened it and not like telling a book. I changed it many times because I wanted to be concise and straight forward but somehow the long biography reflects of the busyness of my life.
A Glimpse Of Eternity, watercolor on paper
This is a pouring method of painting. I tediously draw the details and not knowing it’ll be washed out after pouring a lot of liquid. I thought of giving up at first because it way too difficult to see the details but I was determined to finished it no matter what so I tried my best finding the remaining sketches. So glad I’ve finished it.
Precious Life, watercolor on paper
Then I decided to why not free myself from worries and paint whatever I want? I want to put everything I learned and experimented on a paper. It excites me! I was sketching ideas almost every day and I want my work to be original and personal that truly defines who really I am as a person and artist! This idea popped out in my mind when I was so depressed, an idea that is so uniquely mine and I’m happy to finally find my own expression and style.